It's been a while since my last visit here... It's just that I've been busy... nice busy. My family reunion has been the most important piece of news in my life in the last couple months. The echoes of their voices and the mixing of accents and languages! We'd opened roads pretty far from one another, therefore that get-together was like rediscovering what lies underneath, the warmth of family love. I had never been surrounded by so many people that I love and that love me. The bonds of kinship. As I saw them interact, the differences were also noticeable. Funny how one learns to get along with different groups of people on different levels - not better or worse but just differently.
I also took a big decision and hope it'll be only for the better. I want to open a door for them to have a deeper look at the individual that for several of them is only a role or a distant figure. I hope I'll become more human with my intricacies and ordeals. And I feel this is about the right time for that to happen. I made the first and only possible step in that direction that was safe and unhurtful. We'll see what the next one will be. Meanwhile, I'm trying a one-day-at-a-time strategy with this exciting beginning of the year...
It's been thirty years since mom passed away... a lifetime has gone by... I faintly remember her face and her gestures. I think of her and the image is that of a picture more than the concrete memory of a particular day. The snapshots I cherish. It's hard to bring back the smell of her perfume or the softness of her hands. Yet, her spirit is much alive in me, and as strong as ever. Yes, mom. I've made a life for myself, and keep working on it. I sometimes wonder what it would have been like if you'd been around. But, well, this is it. And I can only strive to be happy -my best tribute to you...
